Divorce

On some fundamental level I'll never forgive myself for the damage my divorce did to my children.  You deal (as do they), you compartmentalize, you move on, etc., but it never really goes away.  It's just in a box in the attic.  So when "D-I-V-O-R-C-E" popped out of the Tammy Wynette "radio" station that MOG defaulted to after finishing the album, I had to laugh a little bit.  What's the alternative?

I don't listen to much country and western music (although I'm looking forward to seeing Connie Britton, Friday Night Lights' Tammi Taylor, in tonight's Nashville pilot), but I had to think, Wow--THIS is country music...

Our little boy is four years old and quite a little man
So we spell out the words we don't want him to understand
Like T.O.Y or maybe S.U.R.P.R.I.S.E
But the words we're hiding from him now
Tear the heart right out of me.

Our D.I.V.O.R.C.E becomes final today
Me and little J.O.E will be goin' away
I love you both and it will be pure H.E double L for me
Oh, I wish that we could stop this D.I.V.O.R.C.E.

Watch him smile, he thinks it Christmas
Or his 5th Birthay
And he thinks C.U.S.O.T.D.Y spells fun or play
I spell out all the hurtin' words
And turn my head when I speak
'Cause I can't spell away this hurt
That's drippin' down my cheek.

Our D.I.V.O.R.C.E becomes final today
Me and little J.O.E will be goin' away
I love you both and it will be pure H.E double L for me
Oh, I wish that we could stop this D.I.V.O.R.C.E

I love the second stanza (You could see it coming a mile away, but still ... isn't that part of the charm?).  And the typographical error in the spelling of custody makes me laugh.

Right now they're playing Bluebird Wine by Emmylou Harris.  And I'm feeling better.